feeling low

Im just feeling low today ,and I don't feel very motivated to something happy. Im not even unhappy about the divorced..i think that part has been done in my heart the last three years ,however I was hopfull or looking for a miracle.I think its the rejection and the loss of dreams and plans and to see he has done them with someone else ,hurts!!!! ITS NOT FARE! I CHOSE TO WAIT FOR SEVEN YEARS NO PARTNER ,LOVER NOTHING,Because...why? lool I don't know trying to see out for better or worse I guess.I just want to move forward from this negative space.