happiness
Today I was in tears, I admitt, sadnes and dispair were like an old towl you keep around. I swalloed some salty tears, and went to my doctor, and told him everything about the diabneties, and what its like to be a cutter, and he listened with good intentions,and perscriped proper meds for my situation. I desire happiness, and I do believe in this doctor a hundred percernt. He hasn't had me gone off my rocker yet. Now I am more educated on the right diet to be on for me for the diabeties has taken away my healthy cells, I can no longer reproduce healthy reed cells should I get an infection. Such as foot problems, and my ankle was twisted for months and i kept wondering why it wouldnt heal itself. IT wouldnt heal because I had nothing healthy to offer it. Now that Im educated on what to do, I know I am armed. I have coping skills to pull out of a hate if you ask me. THearpy is here for the taking. SO I take it. And I give psycothearpy three thumbs up!!!!Yay me for taking the right direction for finally taking control of the diabeties, and not let it controll me.
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I live alone and have been for over ten years, in those years I\'ve learnt that people don\'t make me happy. True happiness can\'t be found in external things, don\'t get me wrong external elements can bring joy and happiness.
I found out that external things only bring joy and happiness only temporarily, but the internal joy last as long as I know God (the word of God) is the author and finisher of it all. I use one hand to type because I was hit in the head with a baseball bat in 1987 being in a drunken fight.
I ended up in a comma and when I woke up I was partial paralyzed. I had to learn to walk and talk again. I don\'t have the mobility I once had I still think of not have my athleticism. But I still have a dream that I\'m working towards I\'m in college and one day I\'m going to graduate.
I worked as a mechanic, I when to school for computers, I got married, and I got divorced that I initiated. I know that my disability doesn\'t prohibit anyone from loving me. I know the spiritual things of God (kingdom principles). I pray for all my aches and pains myself, and I do receive healing. I know when I pray to wait for my healing. Knowing God can and do heal miraculously but I don\'t look for that root because it distract my faith and then I can receive my healing. I leave it to God to work how he wants. At times he does miracles.
After I pray, I then thank him for healing me or who ever I pray for. If I keep asking him that means I don\'t believe he\'s going to heal me therefore not getting my prayers answered.
Symptoms don\'t matter if they don\'t dissipate or even get worst. That\'s just God testing your faith. Just keep thanking him and it don\'t matter how you feel or if you doubt, just keep thanking him for healing you, he does it on his time not ours.
Therapy is a good thing but it\'s not spirit (kingdom principle) so, if/ and or when you ask God for healing keep it between you and God. You mentioned finding God. That impossible he finds us. This post is confirmation he is concerned about you. Without faith it is impossible to please God. Be encouraged, talk to God and thank him for intervening.
Thank you for your inspirational introduction. Ive been living alone with agoraphobia for twenty one years nowseldome bothering to have company, when my place is so messy and scattered as my mind, I finally cleared away the mess, and did the spring cleaning it so needed, and had some friends from church over for dinner, it turned into a comical supper because the one gentlaman who did come along misconcepted my intentions, and brought me flowers when I had them over for dinner, he must have had more romantic times to try to offer, but I blow off most men. Shy and feeling awkward I mouthed the words help me help me to my sis who got the message, and made things clear to this gentlman that I was not interested in anything romantic at this time. I do not look to external things for my happiness. It is not found in a bottle. It is found deep inside when I reach true happiness, my blood sugar will be in more control, and I will feel more mentally able. I never let my disabilities stop me from trying to overcome obstacles and I talk to God as I understand him. Im still trying to find him. I was in a similiar situation previously where I had been beaten so badly I was in a coma like state in a mental hospital for a week and my parents were not contacted. So they didn\'t know I had gotten beaten to a pubp by my own peers while in a \"safe\" mental hospital for wayward children up north. I was out of control with cutting, and it seemed to be about time to give that up and begin to fight. I learned from people who have their masters how to cope with this illness, and I arm myself everday with these coping skills that amaze even me sometimes. Sometimes I sponsor children who self inflict as my way of support. I try to tell them Im here, Im listening.