CHange

CHange it is the most difficult word. Changes are necessary in life I believe. Without change progress cannot be made. Sometimes change is needed. Sometimes too much change can really be overwhelming to do. Sometimes I I try so hard at things then feel a failure when I need a shot for the diabeties. It means I'm not doing what I should be. It's hard to begin excersizing when your in pain in your knees. On good days I walk with a cane, to beat off the loose dogs and animals in the area if need be. OR to ward people off. nobody messes with an older type looking woman with  a cane. They know they'd be sorry in the end. HEh. It protects me. WHen I have the energy from life, I try to lift weigfhts. You can just sit there and pull at it and pull at the bar and I feel it burning. I do what I can. Sometimes I am not at my best. At times I forget forget I am part of a loving family that I am ever so grateful for. IF I was to give my thanks it would be that  I have someone to call mommy and daddy who love me, and show me how by how they take care of me., They are always there when I am in need. To show them that I care about myself I am trying to change. CHange the word is so scary. But I must. I have to. TO live to fight another day. To breath relax and remember I am part of the world. Not just wishing through a barred window that I can be anymore. I am finally free.