Hey Midget.......Yesterday was 6 months since you left me...... and I am not ok.I go to work everyday, like I used to just after you were gone. It isn't dark on the way to school....and I don't cry everyday on the drive.... any more. But it isn't better. The world doesn't look like it used to and not just because it's in a different part of space. Although saying that, I realize that I am in a different part of space. Out here where the stars aren't familiar to me. They don't guide me. They aren't lighting my way. I can't use them as a reference to find my way home......Because in so many ways, you were my home.......and I'm lonely Sweetface.......I'm lonely in my heart and in my soul and everywhere I look and everything I do is really only you............. and I just wanted you to know.Rest in peace Molly.....Know that the piece of me that went into the earth with you, is with you still....and I don't miss it nearly as much as I do you.
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(((((((Janine)))))))) I am so very sorry that Molly is not here with you.
MY MAMA NURSED MANY ANIMALS BACK TO HEALTH INCLUDING AN IGUANNA AND SHE HATED LIZARDS AND SNAKES BUT MY YOUNGEST BROTHER HAD ONE IN HIS TEEN YEARS THAT HE NEARLY STARVED TO DEATH. WELL WHEN MAMA FOUND THE POOR THING THAT WAY SHE TOOK IT OUT OF HIS ROOM AND PUT IT IN HER OLD ROOM THAT WAS FILLED WITH HER ANTIQUES. SHE FED THAT THING WITH RUBBER GLOVES ON BY HAND AND NURSED HIM BACK TO HEALTH, HE WAS SO BIG AND BEAUTIFUL BUT SHE COULDN\'T STAND TO TOUCH HIM. SHE STARTED LETTING HIM OUT IN HER GARDEN IN THE SUMMERS BECAUSE HE WAS SO BIG HE LOOKED LIKE A DRAGON, HE WOULD STAY BACK THERE ALL SUMMER AND COME UP TO HER AND EAT RAW CHICKEN OUT OF HER RUBBER GLOVED HAND AND HE WOULD COME TO HER WHEN SHE WOULD CALL HIM. HIS NAME WAS IGGY. HER YARD WAS FENCED WITH WOOD FROM AN OLD BARN SO IT WAS TOTALLY CLOSED IN, THE ONLY PEOPLE WHO COULD SEE IN HER YARD WAS THE NEIGHBORS NEXT DOOR FROM THEIR BACK DECK. THEY KNEW IGGY WAS OUT THERE AS THEY WOULD FEDD THE ANIMALS WHEN SHE VACATIONED. ONE DAY MAMA WENT OUT TO FEED IGGY AND HE DIDN\'T COME SO SHE LOOKED ALL OVER HER YARD TO FIND HIM DEAD WITH A PELLET HOLES IN HIS SIDE, THE BOY THAT WAS 12 SHOT IGGY WITH HIS PELLET GUN FROM THERE DECK. MAMA CARRIED IGGY NEXT DOOR AND SHOWED HIM TO WILL THE KIDS DAD, AND THE KID ADMITTED TO SHOOTING IGGY..... YOU KNOW THAT MAMA PICKED UP THAT DEAD IGUANNA UP WITHOUT RUBBER GLOVES AND DIDN\'T THINK TWICE ABOUT IT. THEN MY BROTHERS DOG GOT HIT BY A CAR SHE STOPPED TRAFFIC ON THE HYWY AND GOT HIM TO THE VET HIS FRONT LEFT LEG HAD TO BE AMPUTATED AND SHE NURSED HIM BACK TO HEALTH AND TAUGHT HIM HOW TO WALK AGAIN. SHE RESCUED A CAT THAT ONE OF HER NEIGHBORS KIDS WERE MISTREATING, SHE FED IT AND THEN LET IT IN IN NEVER EVER TRIED TO GET OUT AGAIN. YOU KNOW WHEN SHE WAS DYING THAT CAT(JAZZ) AND THE DOG (BUDDY) ON THAT LAST NIGHT NEVER LEFT HER BEDSIDE AND JAZZ WHO NEVER REALLY WARMED UP TO PEOPLE WAS RIGHT ON THE FOOT OF MAMA\'S HOSPITAL BED AND JAZZ NEVER DID THAT BEFORE. MAMA JUST RESCUED HER AND OFFERED HER A HOME AND JUST LET JAZZ BE WHO SHE WAS, BUT BUDDY AND JAZZ KNEW SHE WAS LEAVING US AND THEY WANTED THEIR TIME WITH HER TOO SO THEY TOOK IT, THAT NIGHT WE ALL NOTICED HOW PECULIAR BUDDY AND JAZZ WERE ACTING..
ANYWAY JANINE TRUST ME MOLLY IS NOT LONELY, MAMA\'S THEIR WITH HER AND I\'M SURE SHE\'S BEING TAKEN CARE OF BY MY MAMA, IF SHE WOULD COME TO LOVE AN IGUANNA THEN SHE WILL SURELY LOVE ON MOLLY FOR YA A WHOLE LOT. MAMA ALWAYS LOVED A GOOD DOG AS LONG AS THEY DIDN\'T LICK THEIR BUMM HOLE AND THEN TRY TO LICK HER FACE, BUT THEN SHE\'D STILL LOVE ON EM WITH ALL HER HEART. WHEN BUDDY GOT HIT SHE CALLED ME AND SAID KIMMIE YOU GOTTA PRAY FOR BUDDY I\'M AFFRAID HE\'LL DIE IF YOU DON\'T SO WE PRAYED THEN SHE ADDED THESE WORDS \"OH GOD I KNOW YOU LOVE THE BEASTS YOU PUT ON THIS EARTH SOME TO FEED US AND OTHERS TO BE OUR COMPANIONS, SO I ASK YOU TODAY LORD TO WATCH OVER AND TAKE CARE OF BUDDY FOOR US. AND BY THE WAY WE ALREADY LOST IGGY EARLIER THIS YEAR SO WON\'T YOU PLEASE LET BUDDY STAY WITH US A WHILE LONGER?? IN JESUS NAME, AMEN\" IT\'S IRONIC JANINE, BUDDY AND JAZZ OUTLIVED THEIR RESCUER. SHE CRIED ALONG TIME FOR IGGY AND HERE SHE THOUGHT SHE WAS JUST BEING HUMANE BY SAVING HIM BUT SHE CAME TO LOVE EVEN A LIZARD.
I KNOW THIS STORY WON\'T STOP YOU FROM MISSING MOLLY BUT TAKE A LITTLE COMFORT IN KNOWING THAT IF MOLLY FELT LOST OR LONELY WITHOUT YOU IT WASN\'T FOR TOO LONG BECAUSE MY MAMA DIED 4 MONTTHS BEFORE HER AND MY MAMA WOULD RESUE ANY ANIMAL THAT WAS LOST OR FRIGHTENED.....
BY THE WAY HOW IS \"P\"? AND MR. BEAR? HOLDING THE FORT DOWN I HOPE. BE WELL *K
WHY DIDN\'T I PROOF READ!!!! UMPH!!!! AWW HELL IT\'S 11:20 PM A FEW ERRORS SHOULD BE ALRIGHT...............*K
OH YEA!!! MY BROTHER ALSO HAD A WHITE RAT!!!! SHE CAME TO LOVE AND FEED AND PET BECAUSE AGAIN MY LITTLE BROTHER HAD IT FOR A PET AND WASN\'T TAKING CARE OF IT SO SHE DID, I\'D RATHER HOLD A SNAKE!! I IN NOWAY COULD EVEN LOOK AT IT EEEEEWWWW!!! IT HAD PINK EYES, IT DIED.. I BET IT\'S UP THERE HANGIN AROUND WITH HER TOO......YOU AND MOLLY HAVE GIVEN ME SOME PRECIOUS MEMORIES TONIGHT, I HAD FORGOTTEN SO MUCH OF WHAT AND WHO SHE WAS BECAUSE I WASN\'T ABLE TO SEE OR REMEMBER THE GOOD TIMES. I COULD ONLY SEE HER DEATH, I LITERALLY HAD COMPLETELY FORGOTTEN ABOUT THAT RAT... WHAT WAS HIS NAME?? IT WASN\'T BUT ABOUT 12 YEARS AGO WHY CAN\'T I REMEMBER HIS NAME? SEE... OH WELL YOU GET THE POINT, YOUR LOVE FOR MOLLY HELPED ME REMEMBER HOW MAMA RESUED ANIMALS, EVEN IF SHE WAS RESCUING THEM FROM CURT (LITTLE BROTHER) NAW... SHE RESCUED MORE THAN THEM THROUGHOUT MY LIFE.........THANKS TO YOU AND MOLLY TONIGHT AND THE GIFT OF FOND MEMORIES..*K SORRY TO MONOPOLIZE YOUR WHOLE JOURNAL TONIGHT I GOT STARTED AND COULDN\'T STOP...*K
AND I am positive that Timmy is carrying Molly around AND if his hands are full she sits atop his head like a coonskin cap! AND I bet Adam has ingeniously built a feeder that Molly can eat whenever she wishes. I am so sorry you are feeling bad but I bet Molly is having herself a good old time. One of these days you will fall asleep and see them all smiling and playing and your heart will be happy. Janine you loved her and she knew that...I thought she was a Chin (dog) I now know she was a chinchilla! Makes no difference if she was a hippoponemous...you loved her and it is the love that you mourne. You are totally missed! Love Ya Kathy
So I got back from vacation... and I was wondering... you write so beautifully... your words draw pictures for me... and I\'m there with you... that\'s very good writing... I\'ve been many times in outer space... an alien on this planet... not knowing where I belong... wondering if I\'d ever feel even ok again... I hope that our letters reach you... I am not going to tell you not to cry... I just am going to say... we care... we\'re here when you can return... and our hearts and prayers... hugs and lots of love... are with you... I was inspired by Kaydeedid and Katmac\'s responses... Isn\'t it wonderful what other people\'s journals can evoke for us... I see Timmy and Adam... loving and enjoying Molly... and I\'m smiling... Cara\'s going to sneak in there and get a bit of a snuggle with Molly... Yall see that gray poodle doggie... no no she does not have a standard poodle cut... I just didn\'t care for the poufs... LOL anyhoo... give her a pet won\'t you... that\'s Duchess.... she\'s so much a loving doggie... I know Cara is spoiling her rotten... no table scraps Cara... its bad for her... hmmmmm I wonder... maybe when we get to heaven we can eat anything we want.... or..... maybe... we eat nothing at all...... oh dear... LOL
Love Yall Elissa