Today I have had the shit kicked out of me by everyone including me.
The people I work with. The teacher I'm working for. The students I am trying to teach and the husband I can neither explain to nor teach about myself................
I am dieting and exercising and am gaining weight not losing it.
My bird is locked in a dark cage screaming and the chin........ just isn't the one I want.................
And I have to go. I'm behind in the yard and unless I get ahead in the job I won't be able to stay as far behind in the yard as I already am.........
I know I should really only be grateful for all the good things I have in my life. But sometimes it feels like good things shouldn't have to be so hard to have..........
The people I work with. The teacher I'm working for. The students I am trying to teach and the husband I can neither explain to nor teach about myself................
I am dieting and exercising and am gaining weight not losing it.
My bird is locked in a dark cage screaming and the chin........ just isn't the one I want.................
And I have to go. I'm behind in the yard and unless I get ahead in the job I won't be able to stay as far behind in the yard as I already am.........
I know I should really only be grateful for all the good things I have in my life. But sometimes it feels like good things shouldn't have to be so hard to have..........
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First things first, My Dear...stop kicking yourself...it ouchies...and there are more than enough other people to do that for us...don\'t need to assist them...next, banish that evil word \"should\" from your vocabulary...who says you \"should\" only be grateful for...or \"should only\" anything...there are no \"shoulds\"...only what you feel...that is what is valid and what matters. (((((((((hugest hugs)))))))) and lots of love on this rough day.
PLEASE FEEL BETTER JANINE WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND WOULD NEVER KICK YOU. LOVE YA GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and no more shit kickin without your cowboy boots!!!!! ya hear me now????
I THINK IT\'S JUST A BIG OLE DAY IN SUCKYVILLE FOR MOST OF US TODAY!!!! HANG IN THERE. IF YOU EVER GET YOUR HUSBAND TO TRULY UNDERSTAND YOU, YOU\'LL PROBABLY BE THE FIRST WOMAN EVER... I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!
People like us from alcoholic pattern families are so used to going along with the people who kick us (if you can\'t beat em join em), that we have forgotten (or never learned to begin with) how to be good to ourselves. I\'m feeling down today too, but I\'m gonna give myself a pep talk in the form of a journal entry.
Life is NOT black and white! There is no such thing as should or should not.
The people you work with ahhhh they have no personality! You are not in this world to live up to anyone\'s expectations but your own and Janine the things you expect of yourself would cripple a mountain. HMMMM. That was a really bad simale...but you know what I mean.
The kids you teach see the sun shinning and want to be out in it...that is human nature they just have a heck of a time controlling it.
I cannot imagine you working FOR anyone...possibly WITH. You are creative and imaginitive and dedicated not to forget independent, opinionated and a visionary. Kids could not help but gain much from that kind of input. Your partner is probably burned out.
While Evil does not make life exactly easy you must admit rather than a companion you have a built in adventure. Husbands never understand wives! They believe two things: Marriage is a contract in which they earn a living and the wife brings all the rest and their life is independent and to be lived as seen fit and what is left over is for the marriage. If they are inteligent there are sometimes lively conversations, debates, and humor. If the mood strikes there may be dinner, and flowers not to be confused with the I\'m sorry gifts.
Now as for \"P\" do you think you might benefit from staying in the dark for a while with your covers pulled over your head?
I simply cannot understand why yard work would reduce the size of your behind. AND Isn\'t gaining weight a sign of contentment? Exercise and diet makes you tired and miserable. What is the benefit in that? HMMMM
I think I\'ll wonder away...scratching my head again. I get so confused when you don\'t realize how special you are. Can\'t you see it?
hmmmm mmmmmm mmmmm mmmmm Aquarius.....Aquarius.....Aquarius....Aquarius
TAPPING MY FOOT, FISTS PERCHED ON MY HIPS, HEAD COCKED SIDEWAYS, STETHASCOPE HANGING AROUND MY NECK, GLASSES A TOP THE RATS NEST THAT KATHY\'S SUPPOSE TO COME TOODLE HER FLUTE AS TO GET THEM OUT OF MY HAIR, DRESSED IN SCRUBS WITH WADER BOOTS UP TO MY CROTCH AS TO AVOID ALL THE SHIT THE PATIENTS GIVE ME..... ANYWAY YOU HAVE NOT BROUGHT \"P\" BACK FOR HER FOLLOW UP APPOINTMENT! HAVE YOU BEEN KEEPING AN EYE ON HER ( NO NOT YOUR GLASS EYE SITTIN ON TOP OF HER CAGE!)YOU KNOW JANINE, SHE COULD HAVE PRICKED OR IS IT PECKED? A HOLE IN THE BOTTOM OF HER CAGE AND ESCAPED TO SYB\'S HOUSE. WHERE SYB WILL ENCOURAGE \"P\" TO CONTINUE PLAYING WITH HER BATTERY OPERATED TOYS( IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN) AND LAYING VIRGINAL EGGS SYB IS HER LOYAL SERVANT YOU KNOW? AND WILL SURELY TRY TO HELP HER HATCH HER VIRGINAL EGGS AND THAT WILL SURELY DRIVE \"P\" CRAZY NOT TO MENTION WHAT IT COULD DO SYB. OOOH THAT COULD BE MESSY. SOOOO PUT YOUR GLASS EYE BACK IN AND USE YOUR GOOD EYE TO CHECK ON \"P\" THEN CALL ME FOR \"P\'S\" FOLLOW UP APPOINTMENT OR AT LEAST GIVE ME AN UPDATE. IT\'S NOT NICE TO FOOL WITH ((((((DR. KIMMIE))))))
IS KATHY AN AQUARIUS OR A CHILD OF THE UNIVERSE WITH THAT HOLE SHE\'S SCRATCHED IN HER HEAD I\'M NOT SURE WHAT SHE IS TRYING TO SAY. SHE\'S BEEN WAY OUT THERE LATELY BUT I DON\'T THINK AQUARIUS IS A NICE PLACE TO VISIT, AND WHERE THE HELL IS HER FLUTE THESE RATS ARE MAKING ME SCRATCH A HOLE IN MY HEAD AND I DON\'T WANT TO BE RUNNIN AROUND WITH A BATMAN NIGHT SHIRT ON AND A BLACK MASK WITH HERSHEY HUGS IN MY POCKET. THEN I\'LL BE DIVING IN AND OUT OF BUSHES HEADING FOR THE LOONEY BIN WITH THE REST OF YA, THEN MY PRACTICE WILL BE IN THE SEWER AND THE WADERS WON\'T DO ME MUCH GOOD THERE......... NOW WILL THEY!!!!! I HOPE LISA DOESN\'T SHOW UP TO NAME THE RATS OR I\'LL BE STUCK WITH THEM TOO!!!!!
GOT CHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!HE HE HE HE HE HE HAWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!