In a response to someone else's journal entry, I wrote about the fact that I was walking down the hall at school last week and just found myself with this big, huge, stupid, shit-eating grin on my face.....
and realizing that the reason it was there was because of here. This place. My friends, my crew, my homies, my sisters young and old, my heroes of the heart....
This place is the reason I'm not all-alone crazy anymore and I'll be grateful for that until the day I die. I will never be so down or so lost that I can't come here and feel better. I will never be in so many pieces that you can't put me back together and I will never be as alone as I think I am without Molly because I am never alone knowing I have you......
So don't worry about the rants, or my raving or my ability to talk forever without needing to draw breath (it's a gift really........... *smile*) it's all just part of the big picture that is me (albeit a strange and slightly out of focus picture!) and I am a survivor...... or I wouldn't still be here.
I've just shut myself off from my feelings for a long time because I thought it wasn't ok to feel them much less share them aloud. But being here has reminded me that the opposite is true so I've got a lot of catching up to do.......... I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!
and just so you'll know it's not really all bad......
You should know that the new chin's nickname (his actual name is Luna) is "2". As in IQ 2. As in, he just jumped up on the sofa for a sunflower seed treat and didn't recognize me with my glasses on. SWEAR TO GOD.......... he just stood on the edge of the sofa and stared at me until I took the glasses off and you could just see the light-bulb turning on in his head because "Oh, you really are the mama!".......
bless his furry little pea sized brain.......
That's my 2.
I'm the only person I know with a mentally challenged chin............ an intellect so small only a mother could love him....... *smile* lol........
Now smile, laugh a little......
AND STOP WORRYING ABOUT ME!!!!!
Remember, I'm not all-alone crazy anymore. So my life will never be beyond your ability to help make it better!
and realizing that the reason it was there was because of here. This place. My friends, my crew, my homies, my sisters young and old, my heroes of the heart....
This place is the reason I'm not all-alone crazy anymore and I'll be grateful for that until the day I die. I will never be so down or so lost that I can't come here and feel better. I will never be in so many pieces that you can't put me back together and I will never be as alone as I think I am without Molly because I am never alone knowing I have you......
So don't worry about the rants, or my raving or my ability to talk forever without needing to draw breath (it's a gift really........... *smile*) it's all just part of the big picture that is me (albeit a strange and slightly out of focus picture!) and I am a survivor...... or I wouldn't still be here.
I've just shut myself off from my feelings for a long time because I thought it wasn't ok to feel them much less share them aloud. But being here has reminded me that the opposite is true so I've got a lot of catching up to do.......... I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!
and just so you'll know it's not really all bad......
You should know that the new chin's nickname (his actual name is Luna) is "2". As in IQ 2. As in, he just jumped up on the sofa for a sunflower seed treat and didn't recognize me with my glasses on. SWEAR TO GOD.......... he just stood on the edge of the sofa and stared at me until I took the glasses off and you could just see the light-bulb turning on in his head because "Oh, you really are the mama!".......
bless his furry little pea sized brain.......
That's my 2.
I'm the only person I know with a mentally challenged chin............ an intellect so small only a mother could love him....... *smile* lol........
Now smile, laugh a little......
AND STOP WORRYING ABOUT ME!!!!!
Remember, I'm not all-alone crazy anymore. So my life will never be beyond your ability to help make it better!
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you are definately a survivor...((smiles)) and \"2\" better watch out...those of us who are \"mamas\" to our feeble minded pets are needed...who else would love and care for them?? lol
you seem to be doing so well hon....and believe me...WE LOVE YOU TOO
RANT AWAY JANINE.........WE ARE HERE TO LISTEN.