I miss you my girl. I miss your smile, and the funny way you used to look at me and how long it took you to wake up and how you'd pop your head up and make sure I saw you when I was calling and thought you were lost. I miss laying on the floor next to you. I miss "tag" and "hide-n-seek". I miss you running across the keyboard or peering over the top of the laptop when I'd been on the computer too long and it was "YOUR TURN" to have my undivided attention. I don't spend much time in the kitchen now, hell I barely even go downstairs. I can't bear to be where you were now that you're not there. I need you to help me. I need you to tell me how to go on without you. I need you to tell me what I should do. Because I don't trust anybody anymore. I don't want to believe in anything anymore. I don't know how to be me without you and the truth is that I don't even know if I want to. I don't know how to do this. I don't know how to do this.