I'm so ready just to be done with everything. I did increase my prozac today because I know that's what my psychiatrist is going to tell me to do so figured I'd get a few days head start. The yeast infection seems to be back...AND the fissure stuff is still ongoing and seems to be getting worse. Treating with antibiotic ointments (2 different ones...one has a steroid as well) since October 2012 can not be good for the body...but still it continues...since my doc says there's nothing else that can be done. I hurt so bad and am beyond frustrated.
My thoughts are not in a good place at all...I've caught myself thinking about very scary things. Things that I know would end my time on earth...and it's all I can do to keep hanging on to hope.
Managed to trudge through a couple loads of dishes today...one load was Ebby's food dishes so she can have regular dishes again instead of makeshift wax paper creations. *sigh* I'd like to get her litter box scrubbed out and a bath but not sure I have it in me for both...or either for that matter. Plus I still need to get some supper...or is it lunch. I didn't have breakfast until almost 4pm...but I didn't get up until 2pm-ish otherwise I would've eaten breakfast earlier.
Gratitude:
1. we got a glimpse of the sun today...and some blue sky
2. making more progress then yesterday...even if it's slow progress it's better then none
3. that I have tons of movies to watch to pass the time when I don't feel like doing anything else other then sleeping...and so that I can put them in the donate/sell pile once they're watched and free up space
My thoughts are not in a good place at all...I've caught myself thinking about very scary things. Things that I know would end my time on earth...and it's all I can do to keep hanging on to hope.
Managed to trudge through a couple loads of dishes today...one load was Ebby's food dishes so she can have regular dishes again instead of makeshift wax paper creations. *sigh* I'd like to get her litter box scrubbed out and a bath but not sure I have it in me for both...or either for that matter. Plus I still need to get some supper...or is it lunch. I didn't have breakfast until almost 4pm...but I didn't get up until 2pm-ish otherwise I would've eaten breakfast earlier.
Gratitude:
1. we got a glimpse of the sun today...and some blue sky
2. making more progress then yesterday...even if it's slow progress it's better then none
3. that I have tons of movies to watch to pass the time when I don't feel like doing anything else other then sleeping...and so that I can put them in the donate/sell pile once they're watched and free up space
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Has your diet changed? Maybe going back on the elimination diet would help control the yeast ect. There is a lo t of stuff on line about diet helping to getting better.
I find a day of fasting can help to start then do elim diet to detox your system from wheat dairy white sugar . Have you tried an allergist? Just a thought.
thanks...been trying to figure out if anything is dietary but I haven\'t had any wheat, dairy, or any surplus of sugar...so I don\'t think it\'s that...I track everything like crazy though am sometimes lax on meds and I did have to take a couple doses of various meds for other medical reasons but they should be working out of my system soon. If I can get up at a halfway reasonable time tomorrow I may call my docs office and schedule an appointment.