My mental health has been good and stable but my physical health is lacking. I'm still dealing with ass troubles... anal fissures and my doc just keeps telling me to keep doing what I'm doing, stiz baths and applying the antibiotic ointment (Fuciden) and the other ointment Proctomyxin which also has an antibiotic but also helps with the pain mildly. So I've been on those both since October and all the antibiotics has caused a skin yeast infection on my butt checks and crack....lovely eh. So I'm 2/3's of the way done the meds for that and then my doc wants me to start another med (antibiotic type) for the possible bacterial vaginosis infection that showed up on the tests she did. But I can't do both the meds at the same time so have to wait until done with the meds for the yeast....which still isn't even showing much/any improvement. I'm so frustrated. The fissures do seem almost better but I'm still having intense burning pain with bowel movements and all the issues going on just makes me want to cry. I feel like it's starting to have a bit of an impact on my mental health. But my doc says there's nothing really different we can do just keep maintaining. I'm thinking if things don't start getting better soon that I'm going for a second opinion...but I don't really even know where to go for that. So I just needed to come here and vent.

Other then that I'm trying to improve my health. I've started paying attention to portion control, am trying to eat more balanced diet, am tracking my food intake, and have started exercising. I've lost about 6-8lbs since starting. I can't wait to officially be under 140 again. My doc has been after me for being overweight (BMI) so she'll at least be happy I'm taking charge in this area of my life.

I'm 15 months SI, OD, and hospital free! I never ever thought I could do it.