still struggling
 
been taking the trazadone but all that is doing is making me feel like a zombie during the day...i think I could play a pretty convincing role on the Walking Dead...
 
trying to focus on positive but it's challenging....trying to not let my brain entertain the thoughts of old coping strategies... but that is taking about all the strength I have... 
 
my mom is telling me how lazy i am being and how it's my fault i'm depressed...can't handle even talking to her right now....just makes me feel worse.... i already feel pretty damn useless right now...don't need her pointing it out too