Was in the hospital for a couple nights this past weekend. Been trying to keep busy since I got out. Haven't really been able to do much though. I'm on a new med for sleep and it does work (took awhile...my psychiatrist started me on it a little over a week ago) but I have really bad daytime drowsiness. So I have been getting out a little more then I was pre-admission...but still not as much as I was before this low period started.
Today's been a rough day...just woke up feeling depressed right from the start and then fell asleep and almost missed an appointment. Church was good this evening though...well...it was....but I just wasn't into it. I wanted to be. I feel like I'm doing something wrong that I can't feel God's love around me...even with people telling me it's there. I actually felt worse at church tonight then before I went. I think it's just attacks from the enemy though. I'm not sure yet if I'm going to go to tomorrow nights service. There's a service Saturday evening, Sunday Morning, and John Arnot (not sure of the spelling) is going to be at our church Monday evening. So I'll see what I feel led to do come tomorrow.
Also tomorrow is painting at Clay Cafe...a group I am a member of is going up and they're covering the cost so we get to paint whatever pottery we'd like. Not sure what I'll do yet. Last time I was at Clay Cafe I painted Gerber Daisies. They turned out really nice. May do a couple more of them...or since the group is covering the cost and those are super cheap I may do something different. It's fun though....except I'm so indecisive it takes me forever to figure out what I'm doing. Lol.
Today's been a rough day...just woke up feeling depressed right from the start and then fell asleep and almost missed an appointment. Church was good this evening though...well...it was....but I just wasn't into it. I wanted to be. I feel like I'm doing something wrong that I can't feel God's love around me...even with people telling me it's there. I actually felt worse at church tonight then before I went. I think it's just attacks from the enemy though. I'm not sure yet if I'm going to go to tomorrow nights service. There's a service Saturday evening, Sunday Morning, and John Arnot (not sure of the spelling) is going to be at our church Monday evening. So I'll see what I feel led to do come tomorrow.
Also tomorrow is painting at Clay Cafe...a group I am a member of is going up and they're covering the cost so we get to paint whatever pottery we'd like. Not sure what I'll do yet. Last time I was at Clay Cafe I painted Gerber Daisies. They turned out really nice. May do a couple more of them...or since the group is covering the cost and those are super cheap I may do something different. It's fun though....except I'm so indecisive it takes me forever to figure out what I'm doing. Lol.
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It is hard to feel God\'s love when we are sitting in the bottom of the pit. Can\'t feel any one\'s love when we are there. So I guess that is why we call it faith. All we could say to God is: I know you love me Lord but I am in a bad place right now and can\'t feel it. Help me out of this pit of depression that I may worship you with joy in my heart. Amen.
You went to church Nicolle which is magnificent. You could have stayed home but you didn\'t - that\'s courage, and strength of character. Applaud yourself.
I pray you are still sleeping well with the new med. take care sweetie! xo