Very very rollercoastery emotions wise. I think it's because I've been cutting back the sleep meds and not sleeping as well. I don't really know. Plus last night was first time back in the city.
My bday was okay. It was a good family reunion. Nice to meet new relatives. Every day since then has been pretty much crap though.
I got stuck at my parents because I had laundry that had to get done. And the cats were both sick. Chloe really bad because of the pain med the vet had her on but we were able to stop that early. We had to bath her too because she was such a mess...and that was an interesting experience. I think both of the cats are starting to come around though. They seem to be getting their appetites back and no more vomiting or diarrhea from either. There is still something wrong with Chloe's legs/hips...but nothing showed up on the xray. She's going to have to go in next week for bloodwork. She has a really hard time getting around...and really guards her legs when she's laying down. A lot of times it looks like it's broken but it would've showed on the xray and it switches depending on what side she's laying on. I dunno. Anyway...she's not having a good time and it's hard seeing her go through all this but I'm not ready to give her up. Her personality and expressions are back and aside from the issues with her legs she seems happy. Those two cats, especially Chloe, are the reasons mom and I are as close as we are.
I am thinking of packing up my stuff for the summer and subletting my room. I feel like I need to get away. I need a change. But I don't know where I'd go. It's not like I have money to go anywhere else. I just really want to get away. But then again...I'm at the point it takes me half the day to convince myself to use the energy to get up and go to the washroom. Horrible I know...especially since I usually really need to go by that point. My depression has been worse the last few days and just don't want to do anything. I don't know why I'm in such a funk...my guess is as usual probably sleep related.
My bday was okay. It was a good family reunion. Nice to meet new relatives. Every day since then has been pretty much crap though.
I got stuck at my parents because I had laundry that had to get done. And the cats were both sick. Chloe really bad because of the pain med the vet had her on but we were able to stop that early. We had to bath her too because she was such a mess...and that was an interesting experience. I think both of the cats are starting to come around though. They seem to be getting their appetites back and no more vomiting or diarrhea from either. There is still something wrong with Chloe's legs/hips...but nothing showed up on the xray. She's going to have to go in next week for bloodwork. She has a really hard time getting around...and really guards her legs when she's laying down. A lot of times it looks like it's broken but it would've showed on the xray and it switches depending on what side she's laying on. I dunno. Anyway...she's not having a good time and it's hard seeing her go through all this but I'm not ready to give her up. Her personality and expressions are back and aside from the issues with her legs she seems happy. Those two cats, especially Chloe, are the reasons mom and I are as close as we are.
I am thinking of packing up my stuff for the summer and subletting my room. I feel like I need to get away. I need a change. But I don't know where I'd go. It's not like I have money to go anywhere else. I just really want to get away. But then again...I'm at the point it takes me half the day to convince myself to use the energy to get up and go to the washroom. Horrible I know...especially since I usually really need to go by that point. My depression has been worse the last few days and just don't want to do anything. I don't know why I'm in such a funk...my guess is as usual probably sleep related.
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