Ya know, I'm feeling much better then I was a few hours ago.  I think I really just needed a good cry...I'm still emotional with the wonky sleep and antibiotics.  But I did talk to my parents after I calmed down and they agreed to co-sign the loan, if I can get it, because they know I am good at paying my bills and meeting minimums and it would be very unlikely that they'd ever have a problem.  I just have a heard time with phone calls and standing up for myself and doing what I need to do without getting upset.  Plus I was able to find my paperwork that I need for the meeting next week so that makes me feel a little better too.  Means less phone calls to make.  I'm only looking for $3000-6000 as I mentioned in my other entry and if I can get either for lower then my current high interest credit card it will help.  I know if it's meant to be it will work out.  If not then it's not meant to be at this point in my life...I either have a lesson to learn or God has some better plan for the long run.  It would just mean short term may be more difficult.  So I'm praying that if it's His will that the process will go smoothly and if not then at least I know He will still provide. I got the game My Fitness Coach for Wii in the mail today.  Not sure if I mentioned a few days ago that I was able to get it for about $7 because I saved up enough points through SwagBucks to get $20 in amazon gift cards...so I just had to cover a little bit of the tax and the shipping.  And because I'm actually feeling like working out lately (the last few weeks) I decided to make that my last credit card purchase.  Besides in a way it is kind of a necessity...my Occupational Therapist was actually impressed because now I have no excuse for not having activity in my days at least a few days a week.  This time of year it's hard to go for a walk when you have to get all bundled and then the temperature extremes between outside and inside trigger asthma attacks for me so it really doesn't help motivate me to get out.  Now I have something to do on weekdays that I don't feel like getting out.  I only have to commit to 15 minutes, I can do more if I feel up to it...but todays workout kicked my butt...and it was an easy one.  LOL.  I like it though, you input all your information, height, age, weight, measurements, and it does some fitness testing with you when you set up your profile.  It then can tailor a program based on your current needs.  It recommended I focus on cardio for the most part, but if I want I can override that and work on core strength, upper body, lower body, or yoga and it also takes into account how you're feeling that day....and keeps track of your progress...so I'm actually looking forward to seeing some improvements.  Of course if I keep getting into the chocolates like I did tonight I won't be seeing too many improvements....lol.  Anyway...I think it'll be good for me.  Except I'm kinda sore tonight...but I think mostly in a good way.  I'm sore most of the time anyway...this is just a little different sore.   I'm not sure what else to write and I want to do something else before I get distracted and forget.