Doing alright...Christmas was good but didn't really feel like Christmas, it just came and went so fast and with my uncle's death there was a lot of mixed emotions.  My period hit too so I've been a little extra emotional and super drained.  I don't know why some months it does that to me...but it just really knocks the crap outta me.   Christmas Eve after being down and napping because of the news of my uncles passing my parents came in to help me finish getting packed up and ready to head to their place.  Then we went to the Christmas Eve service at their church and one of my friends who comes most years came and brought her boy who's 2.5 years.  He was super shy for the first half and then kind of wild the 2nd half enough so that one of the ladies of the church opened the play room for him.  Ah well...the joys of 2 year olds.  Haha.  Afterwards my parents and I went to one of my sisters for a family gathering and had a good time there.  Christmas Day mom woke me up at around 10am to open our gifts and then by about 11:30am I was snoozing again until she woke me up around 1pm so I could get ready to go to my other sisters.  We had a family gathering there, and it was a great time but I was so tired by the time we got back to my parents that I was in bed and asleep again before my parents.  Boxing Day thankfully I got to sleep in some and then we went to my Aunts for our BIG family get together with a lot of extended family...it's also my Aunt and Uncles wedding anniversary that day.  There were so many of us, I don't even know how many, and tons of great food.  Then afterwards we stopped at my cousins house, and I got a tour (it was my first time seeing their new home)...and it is gorgeous!  Then we got back to my parents house and I was so tired and cold that I laid down under the covers and fell asleep again by 10pm and of course then I was awake at midnight...wide awake.  So I took my ativan dose and just did some quiet activities until about 4am when I was able to fall asleep again.  I didn't end up waking up until 1pm today but I think I really needed the sleep. It's only 4:30pm now but have been managing to get a few things accomplished.  Sprayed my new winter boots so I'll be able to wear them and working on laundry and catching up on some things online.  Having a pj day because I can...lol.  Mom said we might have visiters tonight...not sure yet but I'll probably stay in my pj's depending on who it is.  I'm planning to head to my apartment tomorrow for a bit, maybe a night or two, not sure yet...or possibly to the valley with my parents...really not sure yet...just going with the flow...but I kind of want to head back to the apartment and get some things done there.  We've done a lot of visiting with family and so I feel like I need to head back to my place and relax and get some things done there.   Anyway...doing okay overall.  I don't feel like I belong in my family when we all get together but I make the best of it.  So I did enjoy it but am tired out from it too.  It will be  good to be back to "normal".  Not sure yet if I'm doing anything to ring in the New Year.  My roommate might be back and if that is the case she'll probably want to go to bed early...but if she's not planning on coming back until the next day I may invite a friend or two over just to watch movies and maybe have a little wine or champagne....not sure yet....or maybe I'll go elsewhere for it...or just celebrate the new year on my own like last year.  She had her friends over early...they left early...she went to bed...and last year I stayed up all night and hung out with friends online...on Second Life.  I won't be on SL this year...but it could very well end up being a similar type celebration.  Who knows.  I don't do the big crazy party things...maybe I can talk someone into going to the Parade Square with me to ring in the New Year...they have live music and fireworks...but you freeze your butt off unless you drink before you go...lol.  We'll see what happens.