Wow, how'd I manage to get to Friday without writing a journal entry...lol.  I'm feeling better...still room for improvement but definitely think I'm on the upswing.   That heavy depression feeling has lifted, and I got passed the sedated medicated feeling from the increased meds, and am sleeping better (okay...thanks to all the appointments and the fact I am taking ativan almost every night).  I feel pretty calm considering how close to Christmas it is and even though I'm not done I feel like it's all under control.  I'll probably feel the pressure again the last few days before Christmas but I am so thankful for the break from all the yuckiness.  I think it helps a little that I decided this month to not stress out about money, it's Christmas, have a little fun (within reason), treat myself, get people's gifts, and just enjoy it.  I consider myself a pretty smart shopper and am always looking for deals and discounts.  I also got my hair done, it was needing it so bad...hadn't been touched since the beginning of September and as a treat I got a few highlites and lowlites put in the front...I didn't go to wear I'd normally go for a cut and color...I don't have that kind of money...and I didn't go to the super cheap place that I had gone to a few times this year for just a hair cut...I splurged...but it was still really reasonable.  $75 for a cut, shampoo, color, and style!  That's with tip and taxes so I'm totally happy.  My usual place it would've been closer to $200....or the really cheapy place I wouldn't get the shampoo.  LOL.  It's a must have!  :)  I love when they wash my hair and massage my scalp...if I had the money I'd go for just that on a weekly basis...lol. I've also been needing new winter boots...mine have holes in them and leak...so I've been looking around and found the exact pair I wanted and on sale so ordered them.  Mom is I think going to pay a little towards them for Christmas.  I have to wait for them to get to the store though...I ordered them online and they'll be at the store in the next couple weeks. Oh this city is totally getting crazy with all the murders...I was talking to my landlord today and her granddaughter dad was the latest victim...so sad.  She's just a young girl...not even sure if she's a teenager yet...and she comes around with her grandmother to collect rent (or sometimes just by herself).   Anyway...on a happier funny note...my roommate and I built a gingerbread house tonight....and it's so warm that the roof keeps slidding down...so all the gumballs that were lining the top...are now inside the house...lol.  You had to be here...it's just like this apartment...lol.  Too funny.   Oh, and less then 2 weeks until my my no SI goal is complete!  And then I'll make a new one.