Feeling a little better then last night but sad for different reasons.  Sleep actually wasn't too much of an issue last night...thankfully.  Found out today though from my family doctor that I urgently need to be seen by hematology...she's putting the pressure on them to see me since it could take a year.  My neutrophils (one type of white blood cell) are at 0.3 (normal is 2.0 - 7.5) and I've been told it's bad it can be really bad it gets under 0.5...which it is now.  With all the virus' and things going around right now my body won't be able to fight off infection if I catch anything and there is a slim chance I won't be able to get the vaccinations, though I will know next week for sure.  Right now any fever means a trip to the ER.  Blah.  So that kinda makes me sad...but I am trying hard to trust and have faith that all will be okay.  My Father is the Ultimate Healer and Physician and He works miracles all the time.  So...while I know that...it's still a little scary.  I'm exhausted right now though so I think I'm going to rest.  At least I know there's a reason for the tiredness.