not doing any better, if anything getting worse thoughts are all twisted, i know they are, yet i keep making everyone miserable because of them because at the moment i think it's what is right to do i can't stop cutting and plucking hair and picking...it's taking over my life i feel like death would be better option for everyone then for me to be here and keep hurting people i'm such a screw up, i don't want anything to do with me right now  going to get a bite to eat and then take something to knock myself out for the night...got such a headache and am just so sick of things