I'm feeling kind of off tonight.  I don't know why.  I feel okay....but anxious and having urges to cut and fear of going to bed which I know is irrational.  Then again it's been an off day from the start...although I did wake up ahead of schedule (9:30am)  Fine mentally but I was so drained physically that I couldn't even look at the computer or tv...or walk straight...I had to just lay on the couch with my eyes shut because I couldn't do anything else except that....but I couldn't fall asleep either...I know because I tried to have a nap but it didn't happen.  It took 7 hours to even feel semi-normal.  I did manage to get up and go for a walk with my roommate though.  So it wasn't a complete waste of a day....I managed to keep both goals despite the severe lack of energy.  Going to take a melatonin so I can go to bed.  Have an appointment tomorrow with my psychiatrist....shall be interesting.