I hate the way things are going right now.  No, I'm not going to do anything stupid...I just hate how things are going.  And I feel so so so evil inside right now I just want to make everyone around me miserable.  So it's better if I just hide away...lest I turn anyone else's life into a living hell.  My roommate and I are fighting.  She's decided (after we put in our notice) that she no longer wants to move anymore.  Okay...fine by me...why didn't she say that months ago.  I know I'm not staying past August 1...no way.  No way, no way, no way!  I don't even want to stay here that long.  I need out!  I need out and I have no where to go.  On Monday I'm going to call Public Housing and get my name on their wait list and find out about rental subsidies.  It may be my only way to afford an apartment on my own.  I don't want to deal with roommates anymore.  I'm also going to apply to the co-op housing again.  My last application expired and since I thought my roommate and I were going to find another place together I decided not to reapply.  Apparently that was a mistake.  I just wish I could sleep for a week or two or three and then wake up feeling good again.  Sick of life.