Doing whatever i can to escape from how I have been feeling...to make it so I have no emotions....I don't care right now how bad that sounds...I just don't have it in me to "feel" and to act like a human should around other people.  I'm spending my days knocked out on a small mix of pills so I don't have to face the world...and nights I will be doing the same.  Just waiting for them to kick in enough so I can doze off again.  The good news....at least I'm not cutting or burning.  In fact, I don't really even feel a desire to.  I just want to sleep and sleep and sleep....and then sleep some more.  Someday I'll face life again...but right now this is what I need to do to survive.  It's the only way.  *shrugs*