can't seem to stop the thoughts that are in my head...all day i just want to cry and feel like i am better off dead...i don't want to act on anything and for now am not planning to....it's probably just hormones...time of the month stuff...but it's wearing me down... I see my psychiatrist tomorrow so will talk to her about this with her. got mousetraps today similar to the ones Nan mentioned a few entries back...have one baited and set...waiting to see if it works...  On a happier note I found out today I won a backpacking tent at the Expo...so will have to pick that up soon.  Kinda cool eh...