Got back from my friends this morning.  Had an alright time but I just feel like crying most of the time though I've been holding it in.  What is the point of going on vacation if I'm going to feel so stressed and overwhelmed when I get back?!  Mind you I had a great time and am glad I went but feeling like this when I get back almost makes it not worth it.  I know God is in control and I'm trying to put my trust in Him that things will work out but I feel like I have no direction.  I don't know what I'm suppose to be doing and that frustrates me.  I just feel like giving into all the old coping ways and I know that isn't the answer.  It's not what God wants of me.  I think I'm just going to have a low-key relaxing day try to treat myself good...without spending any money.  That is another thing stressing me out.  Money.  I did well on my vacation but come back and trying to adjust to the strict budget I have and having to pinch pennies is really hard.  I'm already broke for this month and have extra expenses.  I am having to borrow from my parents which bothers me because I know they don't have it either and that just makes me feel even more like crying and giving up.  I know this will all work out and it could be so much worse but right now I'm just overwhelmed.