so did not want to get outta bed this morning...i had an 11am appointment with my mental health nurse and didn't get outta bed until a little after 10am....and I had to have a shower.  Didn't help that today was a gray rainy wet day and just blech.  Ended up missing my bus (or else it didn't come...happens too often around here) and had to stand in the rain for 10+ minutes waiting for the next one...and I got soaked and ended up being late for my appointment.  UGGHHH!  I don't remember anything from the appointment except something about brussel sprouts and she said I was the second one to mention them this week and she feels like now she needs to give them another chance...lol.  I dunno...that's all I remember.  I went to the store after to kill some time before coming home and spent money, now there's a surprise....go to store and spend money...lol.  I bought this cute little leather bracelet that was on sale for $1.49, some juice which I needed, and then the big no-no was the kahlua chocolates.  They are so yummy.  Was hoping they'd curb the urges I'm having to drink and the chocolate cravings at the same time....nope...just makes me want more of both.  *shrugs*  At least they were on sale.  I'm still having issues with my moods and thoughts...as is pretty obvious when I'm wanting to drink.  I can't seem to get a grip on the suicidal thoughts but am trying and know God will bring me through this.  I need to get on track so I can enjoy my trip.  Maybe it's just nerves...I dunno.  I know I'll probably feel better once I get there.