there was still a lot of tossing and turning last night...and a few trips to the washroom.  That is so annoying.  But it was a tiny bit better then the previous night.  And the combination of the valerian and praying and taking authority over my thoughts and urges (casting down the devil) really did help ease my anxiety.  Plus I knew I didn't have to get up at any specific time...though I still was awake a little after 11am.  I'm going to try a combination of valerian and melatonin tonight to see if I can't induce a good night sleep.  I know I will feel much better mentally and physically once that happens.  As it is right now my body aches for no good reason.  I know a little is from the walk in the snow to and from physio the other...it was hard going with the sidewalks not cleared off but some of it is just the level of tension that's in my body.  I can't seem to make my body relax.  And after physio, within a few hours, I'm so tensed up again.  It drives me nuts and I don't know what to do about it.  Trying to teach my body to relax is harder then getting up and working out.  Anyway...kinda babbling about it so I'll hush.  I just want to be healthy, happy, and not tense all the time.  I'm trying...I really am.