It's like 2:40am and I haven't been able to wind down.  My moods have been shifting in the last hour or two and I'm feeling worn down and depressed and like cutting.  I don't want to...I feel like it's the only thing that will help...even though I know it's not true.  I know this is probably just pms'y stuff.  My period was suppose to start on Tuesday...it hasn't yet...but I know my body has been through a lot in the last month so I know it may be a bit wonky period wise.  It's really screwing with my head though.  I hate feeling like this even for a minute.  I really don't want to fall apart again this time.  I don't want to end up having to be in the hospital every time I have my period.