The jittery shaky weird feelings are mostly gone, which tells me that was definitiley from the meds...as is the feelings of everything moving and me floating, My blood pressure is getting back to a more acceptable level.  120/78  pulse 68, definitely more comfortable with that then the readings I was getting.  But the problem is my thoughts after just one decreased dose have gotten worse.  I don't know if the decrease in meds can have an effect that quickly...but it seems to.  I dunno.  I didn't end up cutting or burning which were my biggest urges but I vaguely remember taking a small tylenol overdose....that was after I took an ativan and the oxazepam which was actually making me sleepy...but I think it clouds my judgement a bit.  *sigh*  I'm not off to a great start for the new year am I?!  What's a new year really anyway....just another day...just a different date.  No...I need to try to think of something positive...something positive...uhmm....what's something positive?   I don't think I know right now.    Oh...I guess a positive is I haven't cut or burn yet...though I'm thinking of putting that goal aside for awhile until I'm more stable.  It's just not a top priority for me.  Really.  I know it sounds bad for me to say that...but it's just not.