I'm not getting real far in terms of getting things accomplished.  I did manage to get all the Christmas cards finished that are getting done...and started on the wrapping.  Started.  I've wrapped a whole 2 gifts.  Yippee.  Honestly...I think I'm wrapping my parents gifts in grocery store bags....they're biggest gift got wrapped in a garbage bag.  It's just so much easier.  And right now i don't have it in me to really care a whole lot.  How horrible is that.  Wrapping gets to me on the best days....so lets just say it's not anything near a best day and leave it at that.  I managed to get a parcel in the mail and to pick up more ativan....which is doing nothing, NOTHING for me.  Ordered chinese food for supper and watched Miracle on 34th Street...the newer one...it was on tv.  It's nearly 5am and I haven't slept yet.  Nice...I took my Luvox (supposed to be sedating), I took 1.5mg of ativan, and awhile after that I took 30mg of oxazepam....that was oh...a good 5-7 hours ago.  I'm so tired of trying to hold myself together for everyone.  I'm so not looking forward to the next few days....I feel like the littlest thing will set me off and I'll be on my way back to the hospital.  I'm so freaken edgy.  I'm even walking around on eggshells around me.  How's that for one.  Something odd....a day or two BEFORE I started the Luvox I started noticing those pinprick sensations again that I had months ago before I moved...when I had a weird rash.  I haven't seen the rash again...but the pricking is annoying...though not to the extent it was months ago. Anyway...I'm just kind of babbling.  I should either try to sleep...or be productive and wrap another gift.  *shrugs*  I just want to sleep for the next week...can't wait for all this to be over.  And I hate that I feel this way because I usually love Christmas.  *sigh*