I'm still feeling anxious and overwhelmed but better then I was.  I have a tentative plan for the day and tomorrow and will just see how things go.  I'm not going to the 3pm appointment but I will probably call her and chat for a few minutes.  Then I'm going to have a shower and if I have some energy afterwards I will tidy up some.  I have my online appointment at 5pm and will do that, then make a quick supper...salad and an egg burger...and then if all is well I will probably check out that group tonight.  I don't expect to get home until 9:30pm or so if I go so hopefully winding down won't be a problem, will take some of my sleeping meds but not as high of a dose as last night unless needed.  I changed the ring on my alarm and will turn the ringer on my cell back on so that way hopefully I will hear at least either the alarm or the ringing and be able to make it to tomorrows appointment.  I took time between this entry and the last to clean the big living room window as best as I could and I stuck glittery snowflake decals on it.  Figure since we're having a tiny bit of wet snow outside it's not too early to put the snowflakes on the windows.  :)  I honestly still really feel anxious and tense though and have urges to burn....but I'm fighting it and trying to find other things to do instead and focusing on making a plan.  Not one that is written in stone (that just causes me more anxiety and tension) but a plan of things to do if I can.  Except for the shower...that is written in stone for sure.  LOL