sorry i haven't written in a few days....my psychiatrist and i decided to try another admission so went straight from my appointment with her to the hospital.  I'm on pass right now...at home...my parents are suppose to be with me but they aren't they just dropped me off but it's ok...i've been super aggitated when talking to them the last few days anyway and my roommate just happens to be home so it's ok.  I still feel really depressed and I don't know how to climb out of this.  They have started me on the new meds (Manerix) so hopefully I'll start feeling some good effects from that soon.  So far all I feel is miserable but not from that.  I've felt nauseas and dizzy ever since I overdosed on the benedryl and also now I have a cold...sore throat, pressure in my head, runny nose, sneezy...all that fun stuff.  Anyway...I don't really know what to write.  I don't feel any better but I wish I did.  I'm just working hard right now on getting through each day and hopefully soon will start to feel better.  *shrugs*  Is that possible?  I am not sure right now.  But trying to hold on to hope that it is possible.