i really don't know if i can make it long enough to go to my appointment tomorrow...i'm trying with all i have in me to though...just afraid it might not be enough... i'll do what i have to do to get through the night...but i have a feeling it's not all gonna be good...just whatever it takes to survive...and really i'm not even sure i want to survive...but for everyone elses sake i'm trying to...even though i think everyone is better off without me in this world...trying to ignore those thoughts...i just don't know if i can fight it much longer...i've been fighting too long as it is...