back in city...trying to figure out the most foolproof method of ridding this world of me for once and all...i can't afford to fuck it up again left a message on my psych's phone to cancel future appointments and told her i'm just fucken wasting her time and i don't care anymore....and basically screw the whole med thing and appointments and everything because it's not worth it called my cell phone company to try to straighten out the insane charges and they are complete losers.  I used to tell everyone what a great company they were...well the last few months they have been horrible and over charging me and adding charges, increasing rates, and not telling me a thing.  I tried to cancel my contract but I can't afford that either....over $200 to do that.  So I'm stuck with this phone that I don't want to use anymore.  So basically I'm going to be paying to have a phone that I keep turned off.   i'm so fucken sick of shit.  if only i had a fucken gun i'd be gone by now.  haha...knowing my luck i'd screw that up too somehow.