I'm now at my parents...got here last night and will go back to my place either tonight or for sure tomorrow.  I should wash the clothes I wore at my friends since I think I got smushed banana and stuff on them...lol...joys of little kids.  Ah well...he so cute.  16 months old.  Fell asleep last night on the couch in the living room and woke up sometime through the middle of the night with major urges and anxiety so got up and took an ativan.  Gosh...apparently that is doing me good to be taking it regularly but I really hate it.  I hate taking benzo's and that's what both my meds that I am using right now are....the ativan and the oxazepam that I use for sleep are both in that class.   Well I'm really tired and don't really feel like writting or being on the computer...going to get the laundry started and maybe watch a movie or sleep.  Try to get myself outta the mood I'm in.