God doesn't want me and I don't want Him...*hmpf* can't believe I was ever wrapped up in that stuff...whatever It's just me and the world and I don't want any part of it so that doesn't leave me much options.  It's better for all if I just leave this earth.  I'm sorry for not being better, I tried, but I can only do so much, I am human...and not a good one at that. I don't have it left to bother anymore.  I don't care.  What's the point of trying to be good anyway.  It really doesn't matter.  I don't care anymore.  I don't care if I'm nice or mean or good or bad or whatever...I just going to do whatever.  No sense in trying anymore.  I'm done. I dunno what is going to happen, who knows, only time will tell...but I'm off that "christian" bandwagon now.  I'm not cut out for all that crap.