i promised i'd still be alive...and i am... i tried so hard not to give into any of the urges...but i failed at that...i did some minor cutting...but not till i tried everything else i could think of first to not give in...including my medication options to try to have a healthy decent night sleep...but i just was not strong enough to fight it... i am sorry i know i shouldn't have but i didn't know what else to do to keep myself from taking a massive overdose...i'm sorry...i know i broke my promise...i know i am horrible...i just don't know what else i could've done... *CRYING* i'm so sorry