it's after 3am and i can't seem to wind down...i took an ativan because i am still afraid to go in my room...but i know i should try to sleep...but the ativan has done nothing...i think i took it a good 30-60 min ago...I'm really not sure.  I forgot to look at the clock and I have just been keeping myself distracted by looking at the screen.  Maybe I should just turn out the light and rest on the couch...except that my roommate gets up so freakin early.  She'll be awake probably within 2 hours or so..maybe 3.  With any luck i will be asleep in my bed by then.  I'm sorry for writting so much...it just really helps keep me from acting.  I know I've been such a pain lately.  Oh, but I did post some new photos....two cat/kitten pictures and one of my nephews.  Anyway...i don't really have anything worthwhile to write...I will just end up rambling nonesense or something so I will go.  Hopefully this will be my last entry until after I've slept.