it's after 3am and i can't seem to wind down...i took an ativan because i am still afraid to go in my room...but i know i should try to sleep...but the ativan has done nothing...i think i took it a good 30-60 min ago...I'm really not sure.  I forgot to look at the clock and I have just been keeping myself distracted by looking at the screen.  Maybe I should just turn out the light and rest on the couch...except that my roommate gets up so freakin early.  She'll be awake probably within 2 hours or so..maybe 3.  With any luck i will be asleep in my bed by then.  I'm sorry for writting so much...it just really helps keep me from acting.  I know I've been such a pain lately.  Oh, but I did post some new photos....two cat/kitten pictures and one of my nephews.  Anyway...i don't really have anything worthwhile to write...I will just end up rambling nonesense or something so I will go.  Hopefully this will be my last entry until after I've slept.

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I CAN\'T HELP BUT KINDA LAUGH AT THE TIME DIFFERANCE!
IT\'S ONLY 11:13 HERE IN CALI, LOL.
WELL IT\'S OK TO RAMBLE! MY JOURNALS ARE SO CHAOTIC, LOL.
BUT THAT\'S LIFE.
NOW SWEETIE,
IT IS KINDA LATE. SO I PRAY THAT MR. SANDMAN SENDS YOU SOME SWEET DREAMS LOVELY LADY.
NOW GO HAVE A LIL SNACK...MAYBE A YOO-HOO OR TWO, LOL. AND HAVE SOME SWEET DREAMS. I WILL BE BACK TO CHECK ON YOU LATER, LOL.
IT\'S LATE! I\'M SILLY. NOW LOOK WHO\'S RAMBLING!
LOVE YA LOT\'S,
NIECY.
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I RATED YOUR JOURNAL INSPIRATIONAL BECAUSE YOU ADDED SOME PHOTOS AND I NEED TO ADD SOME TO. SO THANKS FOR BEING INSPIRING!!!
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but LovelyNiecy....I don\'t think we have Yoo-Hoo\'s here =O I would love to try one some day...whatever they are...lol
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I hope you got some sleep, it\'s very important thing of life and being healthy, which i\'m sure you know. Yoo-Hoo\'s are a chocolate milk drink so you\'re not missing much. I\'m dying my hair and will put a pic up asap. well... let me know how you are doing! Love ya lots, call if you want.
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After my stbx left, I started taking a sleeping pill...it only works if I am in the bed ready to fall asleep...then it does its job. If I stay up, it doesn\'t work...so try taking it and going on to bed whether you feel sleepy or not. If you like to read, read till the book hits you in the face...might not work for you, but it does for me...good luck...