not quite as bad at the moment...trying to feel okay... i am sitting in the living room because i am safer here then in my room...and i have my ativan here if needed,but haven't taken...and i'm closer to the kitchen then my room so more likely to eat a ton of ice cream then to cut or do anything really stupid.  I know pigging out isn't the answer either...but in my world it's the lesser of evils...and sometimes that is the best i can do. *shrugs*