this is so sweet and made me teary...and really in my mind shouldn't be limited to just "dad" but all "elders" in a child's life...mainly the parents but also anyone that is friends with anyone that has kids, or babysits, or is in any way involved in a childs life.  They really do watch and learn from us.  I felt I had to share it with my friends who are having their current marital struggles but I also felt I needed to share it here and a few other places.  Even babies, of any age, can pick up on how we act and interact with others and react to it.  They may be to young to understand, but they aren't stupid....babies and children are very smart and they learn and react to the way we act. I'm Watching You Dad  ~~~~ Is it really day 9?  Wow.  A week ago I didn't even think I'd make it the day let alone over a week.  I finally fell asleep last night...probably about 4am-ish....and ended up not waking up until 2pm this afternoon.  I'm sure I really needed it.  I'm glad I didn't sleep in later.  Mood wise I still feel okay...not quite as bubbly as yesterday but still pretty good so far...and it's after 5pm. Have been rather clumsy today, rammed my back into a wall in the kitchen...that hurt and stunned me for a minute (darn spinal nerves) and then a short time later rammed my knee (you know that almost funny bone like area in the knee?) smack into the corner of our glass coffee table and actually moved the whole table (it's quite heavy, takes 2 people to lift)...that hurt...and I've spilt the lid for my greens shake after I took it off the shaker cup and so all kinds of the greens stuff went all over the floor...ugghhhh.  But despite that and the pain in my mouth and the fact my allergies are acting up from yesterday I am doing pretty decent and able to laugh at myself. Why is it that when I am feeling good...I have know idea how I could ever feel so awful and depressed...and when I'm depressed I have now idea how I could ever feel so happy and alive.  I know I felt both, but I can't understand how or why...there's always that disconnect there that I don't understand at all. Anyway this is day 3 at 20mg of Celexa and no major withdrawal feelings or crashing moods (so far).  If I make it 4 more days then I will be able to drop to 10mg and be that much closer to getting off of it completely.  If I can stay feeling happy and positive throughout the rest maybe I won't even need the other med, Manerix, for awhile.  That would be kind of cool.  I'd love to have a break from the meds and feel decent while doing so...but I know it never seems to last.  So I'm not holding my breath...just trying to be cautiously optimistic. Will try and get caught up on the journals I am behind in.  How did I get so far behind.  Know that I love you all and care about each of you (and if you are reading this, then yes that includs YOU too).