totally lost it this morning and while my friend was out to see her daughter i told my roommate how i was doing and that i can't do another night here....so as soon as my friend's ride comes to get her so that she can spend the night somewhere else then I am on my way to the hospital. i want to give into the od'ing so much i don't even care. i want someone to shoot a gun through our window and strike me dead....if i had a gun or knew were to get one...i'd probably do it...but i know there is a tiny part somewhere that doesn't and that's why i need to get help. and i can't wait another day....it's hard enough just waiting the hours until i can just go and be safe...i'm no longer safe on my own. so if you don't see anything from me thats because i'm at the hospital....it's my last option right now.
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WHOA!
BACK THE TRUCK UP!
SWEETIE WHAT\'S UP?
GO TO THE HOSPITAL NOW!
IF YOU ARE FEELING THAT BAD SWEETIE GO!
TOO MANY PEOPLE LOVE YOU AND WOULD MISS YA TERRIBLY
IF YA DID SOMETHING ...BAD!
I LOVE YOU!
I DON\'T WANT YOU TO FEEL LIKE THIS!
THE ONE THING I CAN DO IS PRAY.
FATHER GOD IN HEAVEN,
I PRAY FOR MY SWEET FRIEND NICHOLLE.
LORD SHE NEEDS YOU. SHE NEEDS YOU SOOO DESPERATELY RIGHT NOW.
I ASK THAT YOU GIVE HER WILL POWER AND A FIGHT WITHIN TO LIVE. LORD YOU HAVE SO MUCH IN STORE FOR HER. YOU HAVE AN AMAZING LIFE WAITING FOR HER. LORD PROTECT HER FROM HARM.
LORD PROTECT HER FROM HERSELF.
FATHER I ASK THAT YOU SEND YOUR HOLY ANGELS TO SURROUND HER AND PROTECT HER.
LORD I ASK THAT YOU PROTECT HER AND TAKE CARE OF HER.
BE WITH HER AND SHOW HER THAT YOU LOVE HER AND MADE HER FOR A DIVINE PURPOSE.
LORD THESE PRAYERS I ASK IN YOUR HOLY NAME JESUS,
AMEN.
SWEETIE,
IM HERE FOR YA YOU KNOW THAT.
PM ME AS SOON AS YOU CAN OR E-MAIL ME OK.
GOD IS WITH YA.
JUST TRUST IN HIM.
I\'M GONNA PRAY FOR YA SOME MORE.
GOD LOVES YOU AND SO DO I.
*NIECY*
Hi friend,
I just got back and read your update today, so I needed to go back to see you have been hurting so badly. I am glad you went to the hospital to get help. Praise God He brought you through.
Nan