Decided to try sticking it out at home a little longer...besides i got a couple appts tomorrow that i don't want to screw up.  One of which i would get fined if i had to miss it.  I've had even less energy then usual today...haven't even had it in me to be on the computer much.  Did force myself to put away half the clean towels and to go downstairs and check if we had mail.  Took my oxazepam for sleep at like 9pm and i'm still awake...just can barely move.  I need to wake up in about 6 hours or so.  My room is too hot though and i think that's part of why i can't sleep...even with the fan on full blast i feel like i'm in a sauna.  Not really much to say.  I know i been writing a lot more this month then usual...i think it helps me figure out things.  Now if only I could figure out how to stay focused on God....right now I just don't even got it me to call out Him.  Though I did ask a couple people to pray.  I try to at least ask people to pray for me when I don't have it in me to do so myself.  I don't know if that's good or bad thing.  Well i gotta go use the washroom again and try that whole sleep thing again.  *sigh*  I will get through this.....right?