decided in response to my actions yesterday to bump my progress bar back down to 20% and to freeze myself at 90 days for a day or two.  Not in a celebration type way.  Probably technically I should be resetting it to 0 days but literally all i did was run the blade (no pressure) over my knee....and then I'm like oh sh*t what are you doing and put them away again.  So I will see how I feel about this in the next day or two and may even still bump it back to 0.  I don't know yet.  I'm still feeling in a fog today from all the benzo's yesterday.  I forgot my sleep meds are benzo's as well so I'm feeling a little strange today.  My mom and my aunt are suppose to drop in sometime soon...and my old high school support worker is suppose to come by in a little over an hour...if i hadn't written it down that he was coming i would've thought I hallucinated or dreamt that he called....and my roommate is suppose to get home sometime this afternoon and is having a jam session tonight i think with the guy who woke me up yesterday at 6:30am.  LOL. Should be interesting.  Anyway...I gotta go.  It's 2pm and I still haven't had breakfast.  Had to do dishes and have a shower first and am drinking my greens+ shake thingy.  So just about time for breaky.  LOL.