Today I haven't even really been up and I am feeling the depression so heavy today I just want to scream and hide from the world.  I am trying to pray and to seek my Daddy's face but I can't seem to get more then a word or two out and then I am blocked, attacked, beaten, stuck...  I'm trying...I hope He knows that.  I don't like this feeling, I don't like the thoughts going through my head...  I thought writing might help get me unstuck...but I don't even have words to write right now.