i think I figured out part of why I can't find Him again. First, I never realized how mad I was at God for yesterday and all the feelings because of that. Mad because I couldn't find Him, mad He didn't seem to reach out to me again, mad because I thought He said that the process was going to be gentle...realizing now that just because it hurts doesn't mean it isn't gentle.Second, the trust issue comes back to haunt me...lol. I feel so hurt and rejected that I am having a hard time with the idea of trusting Him again...which is keeping me from finding Him again because I am so afraid of being hurt again. I know that i'm probably not interpreting things quite right...I know He doesn't leave us or any of that...but that's how it feels. Does that make sense? Any suggestions on how to work past the trust issues so I feel I am able to put my trust in Him again? Anyone?