Yesterday I was feeling awful and lost. In an attempt to get away from those feelings I over medicated. Used Ativan to knock me out through the day....and took a little extra of my sleeping meds at night and a couple Benedryl to make sure I really slept. Needless to say I'm not very happy with myself right...but right now I deserve every second of unhappiness I have put on myself. Maybe I'm just not good enough for this "christian" walk. Maybe that's why yesterday I felt so lost and couldn't find God again. He doesn't really want me.
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...of course He wants you! It\'s not about being good enough...after all no one is good enough. Salvation and the love of God is a gift, free for the asking. When I get down I force myself to praise the Lord as St Paul directs us to do in all circumstances. Be honest with the Lord , tell Him you are feeling lost and Blue. The Christian walk isn\'t easy but it is always rewarding. Try psalm 119..the really long one, just do 10 vs. out loud to yourself and God. I find it helps me alot.
Nan
PS: it\'s OK to be unhappy sometimes, that is just the human condition, so don\'t get down on yourself.