feeling crummy and my sleep is off schedule....and i think time of the month is coming up... my head is pounding from crying so much tonight....just really struggling in so many ways...mostly mentally.... I've been falling asleep so late that I sleep in....wake up around noon (which isn't too bad) except I end up falling asleep again around supper time.  And am up again...by about 8pm.  I will soon head to bed though since my head is aching so much.  It's almost 2am.  So will be the earliest night in a few. I thought for sure tonight I was going to land myself in the hospital with the way I felt.  I didn't even feel I had it in me to belief in God or have faith...and wouldn't let someone pray for me...but then after talking (mostly listening) then I finally decided to ask for prayer and it helped.  I don't feel great but I feel a heck of a lot better then 30 minutes ago... Anyway...we had some awesome storms here earlier....I even actually saw the lightning bolts (usually only see the flashes).  And the water that came down was amazing.  Some people got hail...but I didn't see any.  To my knowledge no major damage.  Anyway...not much going on....I think I'm going to grab a small bowl of ice cream and go to bed.  Don't you like my idea of a bedtime snack?  :P