Yay!  Two months free from cutting!   I normally wouldn't mention it or think of it as a big deal but these two months have really tested me in this department and I have NOT given in.  God has brought me through it. I am feeling much better then the last couple days.  I was just feeling yesterday like I don't want to be at war (so to speak) but I know that every day is going to be a battle...we are suppose to keep fighting it even when we don't think we have an ounce left in us to fight.  If we give up that is when Satan is going to sneak his way in...he's good at that.  He's like a hungry lion seeking out the weak one in the pack and I am sorry but I am not going to give him that pleasure of devouring me again.   So today the armour is on and I'm back on the battlefield.  Thankfully I am feeling rested this time and up for the battle.  I think yesterday God must have been carrying me in His arms because I just didn't have it in me.  So many times I broke down and just starting crying because I didn't know what to do anymore.   I am so thankful that we can rest in Him. Today I have to go do the errands I should've been doing earlier this week.  I've gotten my physical strenght back at least a bit.  Although I woke up drenched in sweat...it is soooo warm here today.  But I will go downtown and do what needs to be done and see what I can do to enjoy the day.  I may even treat myself to a something since today is my 2 month celebration.