I sat down to write in here about an hour ago and couldn't.  I had no energy earlier today...it's a lazy, rainy, grey day....but that isn't the problem.  Within the last 2-3 hours I have been feeling a distressing need to do something (something BIG...but good)....problem is I have no idea what it is.  I feel like God is calling me to do something, go somewhere, be something (and I feel it urgently)....problem is I haven't a clue what it is.  I feel like I have an appointment that I'm suppose to be at but that somehow, for some reason, I haven't been given the directions on how to get there...or even a direction to start.  How can I put one foot in front of the other if I'm not sure what direction I am suppose to be facing.  *sigh*  Anyway, this is causing me a high amount of anxious (not necessarily a bad thing) energy and an overwhelming amount of emotion.  I feel like I'm in some sort of crisis....but not.  It's so hard to explain.  The amount of (and intensity) of the emotion I am feeling is the same as when I've been in bad crisis....but *I AM NOT* not in any type of bad crisis.  But I feel like something needs to happen and sooner rather than later.  Okay...I know I am babbling about this....but it's really bothering me.  I admit I like being lazy....but I know that isn't for me anymore most days.  And I feel an extreme urge to do something...something for someone...but who?  And WHAT?  And WHEN?  I don't know....I keep praying...but I feel like I'm not getting any answers in any way, shape, or form.  And it's causing me to cry and feel distress.  When I sat down earlier...I couldn't sit...I had to do something....so I did dishes (first time since I moved in....my roommate says she loves washing dishes so she does them...and I dry and put away...usually)....I also cleaned the toilet...now I'm thinking about cleaning the rest of the bathroom and then running down to the mailbox (in the building) and cleaning ours.  It looks dirty...but it might just be rust stains.  My supper is ready...keep me in prayers that God points me in the right direction and soon.   Other then what I wrote above...everything is good...great even...just feeling a little too intensely...which isn't neccessarily a bad thing.