Opps...I forgot to write here yesterday.  Was an overall uneventful day.  I got up and had a shower and went to my regular doctors appointment for liquid nitrogen treatment on my toe...and to tell her about all the headaches I've been having.  She said they sound like tension headaches (which is what I figured) but with mirgraine traits.  Lovely.  Anyhow, I will survive and I'm sure they'll get better after I move.  Just have to be careful not to take anything for them unless I absolutely have to.  Apparently if you get used to taking meds for headaches you can actually get in a cycle of causing more headaches which leads to you needing the meds more often and eventually stronger meds.  That's scary.  So I try to suffer through it as much as possible unless I have to be up moving around  a lot.   After the appointment I went to the store to price check something and then to the liquor store.  I owed my current roommate a bottle of triple sec but I opted for getting her gift cards instead for the approximate value and then bought myself a 1L bottle of a Bacardi Breezer.  I have been telling myself since March I could and still hadn't so I had that last night.  After the liquore store I dropped off a book I had borrowed from my naturopathic doctor (haven't seen her at all in 2008)...and I stopped into the natural store too to pick up some of my greens+ extra energy powder.  They have a price match guarantee so that was why I went to the other store to price check first.  So I save I think $8.  And now I'm only one product away from getting a free one.  Yay!  They also gave me a really pretty canvas bag for free and I got to try some organic chips they had out.  Yummy, they were good.  I love talking to the owner of the store.  He is really friendly and knowledgeable.  He has used many off the products himself for various reasons so it's just nice to know it's something he feels safe enough to put into/on his body....and has seen benefits from.  There is something he recommended for my immune system which I will try to work into the budget after I move.  He said people with Lupus, Sjogren's, HIV, allergies, and all other immune system issues have found helpful.  The only people he said shouldn't take it are those who have had an organ transplat.  Anyway, I would be interested in seeing if it works....sometime...when I am able to buy it. I met the guy who will be renting my current room last night.  He wanted to stop by to show his gf/and her sister the place and my current roommate (aka landlord) was away so I said I'd be here.  He seems like a very nice guy...hehe...and good looking too....too bad he's got a gf.  Haha...just kidding.  Just seemed quite friendly and it made showing the room so much easier.  I get so on edge waiting to meet new people, especially to show them my space...that I was so wound up once they left.  But I survived.  This whole borderline personality stuff really makes for an interesting life.....keeps it full of surprises.  I think it also causes me to be sensitive to noises and things.  It's almost like a bit of an overlap with autism in that regard although i know I am not autistic in any sense....though I do have similarities in some areas.   Oh, I've officially made it 1 month since I last cut.  And to be honest I didn't really even consider that last cut to be a set back....because I wanted to keep cutting and cutting...but I only made one quick cut and then said no.  Not doing it.  And then I laughed at the devil and told him he didn't win this battle.  And I thanked God.   But regardless it was still a physical cut so I changed my goal to reflect that.  And it has been 1 month. Today is Friday....and if all goes well I will be moving on Monday.  Wow...were does the time go?  I am possibly going to my parents tonight to go to the valley to the annual "country jamboree".....it's not overly exciting but it is tradition and a chance to see family I havne't seen in a year.  I just don't know if I have it in me.  I'm afraid if I go I will tire myself out too much for church Sunday and moving Monday.  And I still have so much to do.  So I'm undecided at this point.  *shrugs*  We'll see what happens. Well I should go....and see what I can get done.  Packing is really annoying.  I want to unpack.  LOL.