Well I am stuffed and it's been a couple hours since I've eaten anything.  I think it's a miracle...lol.  I took the greens+ pills that I have here (only 2 of them and I'll take 2 later)...they're suppose to help with energy among other things, then I had a spicy vietnamese beef salad..mmm...yummy.  Only had a small continer of it and had some Minute Maid Immune Support juice...and then I remembered I had protein powder here that I'm suppose to be using.  The naturopathic doctor I saw last year recommended it so I decided to make a protein shake.  I mixed it with milk and added some chocolate syrup (for flavor of course) and it was actually pretty good...mind you I only put in about half the amount of protein that I was suppose to.  But I've been stuffed ever since.  Still no energy but for once in my life I don't feel like munching on the M&M's I have stashed in my night table drawer.  I'm going to try to start having protein shakes at least once a day because not only does it help with muscles (not a concern at this point because I have none and no energy to excercise) but it suppose to help the immune system and it seems to help with hunger control so it hopefully will keep from overeating and help improve my immune system.  In time I'm sure if I am doing things that are healthier and getting better sleep then the energy will come.  If I can do something to encourage healthier portions of food then that is better then just sitting around eating all the time.  Anyway, I'm feeling pretty positive about the efforts I'm making.  I am sure it will all work out.  And the best part is I already had both products at home so I didn't have to spend money.  The protein powder I think was around $30 when I got it and the greens+ pills for energy...well Mom gave them to me so I have no idea.  The products are made by Genuine Health, it's mainly Canadian but they have a US site as well that offers some of their products.  I'll keep using them and then eventually say if I am finding an improvement.  So far though already is the appetite thing which is awesome...because lately I'd be able to sit down and eat a huge amount and not feel full.  It's something I haven't felt in a long time and as uncomfortable as that feeling is I'm enjoying it.   Alright so I've done enough babbling.  I should be going out for the evening but I'm trying to hold off until tomorrow to have my shower...and my hair is kind of pushing it in the greasy department so I much just stay put and maybe tackle a bit of my room and watch TV or a movie.  My friend wants me to go to the mall tomorrow so I might if I get up at a good time.  If I still have an icepack around I'll pack a protein shake and some of the healthy munchies I have here so I don't eat so much junk while I'm out...and also so I don't spend money I don't have.  The guy at the naturopathic store yesterday when he gave me a sample shake to try of their energy stuff he let me keep the cup which is great because it has a lid that doesn't leak and is great for making a quick easy shake without dirtying a blender.  It mixes the protein powder in so much better then stirring with a spoon.  I'm thinking about going back for a couple more samples so I can get a couple extra cups, lol.  Alright...yes I'm babbling again.  Guess that's a good sign...but I wish I had something more exciting to babble about.  Did anyone see Oprah today?  The big Sandwich Showdown?  It was so much fun to watch.  And then after that Ellen Degeneres was on and her mothers day special.  If you were an expectent mom it would've been awesome to be in that audience.  Alright...well now you know what my day has been all about.  LOL.  Food!  I'll hush now.   

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wow you wright a lot of journal entries. I just read up on all your entries. It\'s a bummer that you don\'t have energy, but you are trying things to make it better and thats good at least you have energy to fight trying to get more. I don\'t know about that cutting thing, I used to use a red marker and mark on me when I wanted to cut, didn\'t do anything, so I don\'t know if drawing a butterfly would work either. Glad you went to church and had a good time. Good thing that you haven\'t cut. Sorry I\'ve been such a bum friend and not keeping up with you, but my life is so busy now its crazy! I\'ll try at least once a week to get caught up on whats going on in your life. try and still call if you want to this weekend... love you friend! I\'m praying for you all the time! BIG xxxx
Rachael