I don't know why I"m feeling so miserable right now.  I was feeling alright earlier today...I even had energy so I went out with some friends and got some errands done.  Got a workout all the walking and picked up some groceries and had good company...but now I'm so tired...exhausted...and I feel really bad.  I really feel strong urges to od and that's not good.  I'm trying not to give in...trying to hand the urges over to God but it doesn't seem to be working.  Just feeling horrible right now...trying to fight it but I don't know for how long.